We officially started our second cycle. It’s so bizzare to me. I don’t know if it’s because we have done this all before or what, but I just feel different. There are so many emotions that happen while on this journey. I literally feel so many different things. I’m still excited, but I’m scared of another failure. I’m anxious. I’m annoyed. I’m happy. I’m sad. I’m everything. I would like to think it’s mostly the hormones, but my emotions are always all over. The medication just heightens it all.
Speaking of medication, I am wayyyy over the progesterone and oil shots. Way way over it. I had a reaction to the last kind, a bad itchy sore reaction. So this time around we switched it up. Now I’ve had a headache for a few days straight. It is what it is. I’ll take that over the allergic reaction any day. (Remind me. I said that when I’m in a room full of kindergarteners this week…)
So Tuesday is transfer number two. I’ve opted out of acupuncture this time. I really wasn’t a fan. I’m planning on just relaxing. It shouldn’t be too hard since I’m out of work for 6 days. Thank goodness for Thanksgiving.
For now, I’m trying really hard to stay calm.
Here goes nothing.